weak in the knees

yesterday was our anniversary and it was beautiful. one year of marriage. it's amazing how love grows and evolves. How much you can love someone and even when you love them so deeply there seems to always be room to love 'more'. it's the little things that are amazing about love. it's growing together and learning..it's sacrificing for each other, learning to be committed to each other in ways that seem insignificant yet when they are significant to the person you love you are committed to them. i love mike for so many different things, and i don't just love him for how he makes me feel, or because he loves me - i love him for who he is but i do love the way he loves me. today i stayed home from work cause i was sick and i ended up watching the notebook and cried so hard at the end, cried more than i have in a long time..it was strange, i felt like i couldn't even stop myself from crying if i'd wanted to. but still what stands out the most in life is not really that you might love and then be hurt because of it, or that if you love someone and they die that you'd be so sad because of it, i think one of the saddest things in life is not having loved at all....not letting yourself draw close to someone because of your own fear, what we remember most in life is the love we did have..the love we did find - in friends..in our family...in our close relationships - in the little things. every day i love mike more. every day we have the choice to keep loving even when the hurts come, or we can choose to ignore love and then live a very dull life filled with not much hurt or sadness and not much love either. I hope today you choose to love - it's worth it.