Two Dozen Roses!

I got 2 dozen roses today! for no reason. just because my husband loves me. And he has this really great habit of just buying me flowers because he loves me, not because we get in fights and he's trying to win me back, but really just when he thinks of me and wants to show his love! and i appreciate that so much! i feel special and very loved!

Coffee.
well since i moved to vancouver years and years ago i've always wanted to have my own coffee shop, right here in vancouver. And i think when i got married and moved to Scotland for awhile, i forgot about it, or rather i let it go for a time, but now that we are back here in Vancouver, and we ( me and mike) are wanting to pursue what we really want to do...and trying to figure out what that is...this coffee shop idea keeps coming up....it came up three times yesterday and i'm really interested to see what God has up His sleeve with this....as well as music, it's something i am not so confident in and yet when i really love music..i love the feel of music flowing through your veins, as if there is something in the instruments that is singing it's own language.....it speaks more than i can say with words. and that is why it's music, i guess.
anyways, onto just normal things .... we hung out with the DTS tonight and it was really fun, we played games, ate 'Canadian food' and played Canadian Trivia. Good times. I'm really tired. So i'm going to go to bed for now. I'm looking forward to just sleeping very soon. I'm looking forward to just having some space, spending time with my husband, i'm looking forward to very soon having our own space, so that i can think clearer about coffee and music and life and what mine is meant to look like.

Peace of mind

Well...here we go, i'm really really going to start using this thing. I want you all to know what's going on in my head, in my thoughts and maybe just in my life. I may have lots to share or nothing to share, but here it is. My blog. So, today i feel better than i have in awhile, i'm realizing that i don't feel as guilty and responsible as i used to. In a good way, i feel like i can make my own decisions and not feel like the weight of many things is on my shoulders, like somehow i am responsible for all these things ....i guess it was a bit arrogant of me, so now i feel much better. And today i got to have breakfast with emily and spend some more time with her. I just feel like i know that soon i will get to relax. We are still feeling really unsettled and like we have no home, but we will have a home soon , not our own place, but close enough to our own place for now...so i can see it coming lcoser and that gives me more peace. That's all for now....

Are we there yet? i feel like i'm constatly on the move...that home is this elusive thing that i'm longing for. i want to be home, i want to have a home, i feel at home, and yet i feel like especially right now i'm aching for home. but i don't know where that is.