whispers

well i think it comes down to trust. Me and mike have been praying about our money situation for awhile, and we've been praying about getting a really nice camera so that we can pursue photography more and we've been asking God to meet our needs and He is. And yesterday was encouraging because we were given some money and told that more was on the way, so we still need alot more but God is being faithful. We still need God to meet our needs tomorrow and this week but He is faithful to provide for us. And in our hearts we're learning to trust God for the things that are important to us as well ( like a really nice camera) and other fun things and i feel like i'm learning about Grace again and i'm learning to trust again. And i feel like God never lets me down. I may not understand His timing and His way of doing things, but i'm beginning to trust on a deeper level that His heart is for my best. His heart is to love me. His heart is to be in relationship with me that goes beyond just meeting my 'physical' needs, but to really be filling the holes in my heart that need filling. And not just because He is what's left, but because His love is necessary for my heart to survive.

whispers speak so loudly
of the feelings our heart can't grasp
the secrets we long to be sharing
the truth that's in our hand

we keep searching for the answers
keep looking for the light of day
all we want is to be heard
to know we're inside someone's head

we are lulled into sleep
by the thought of tomorrow coming
there is no way to avoid it
no where to run and hide

all we want is freedom
all we want is to breathe fresh air
to be at peace with ourselves
to know that someone cares.

and it all comes down to trust
trust in someone greater than ourselves
who knows our deepest longings
who can see inside our heads

and so today i choose to trust
that this grace i can sense is real
that love is not an ideal
that truth is in my heart