my life right now

well...if we were together, i'd offer you coffee and just sit with you and share what's been going on in my life these past few days. it seems like not much and some big stuff as well.... i'm sure some of you have read on mike's blog about our ultrasound experience. i guess i thought it was going to be one of those momentous experiences of seeing our baby for the first time....and it was mixed emotions. the lady was a horrible doctor and mike wans't allowed in the room with me for the longest time and then finally because he asked another nurse if he could come in....and so he was finally allowed in, but then she wasn't really going to let me see the baby on the screen until i had to ask, it was pretty upsetting...i didn't understand why she didn't see this as more of an experience for us, she was very clinical and rude.
that kind of took alot out of us....it was hard, emotionally especially. and we were expecting to find out if it was a boy or a girl but she wouldn't tell us.....
anways........so other than that...last night we hung out with leigh and ang...and actually went out for coffee, which was so nice just to get out of the house and sit somwhere nice and just talk with friends......then we watched a movie i wouldn't recommend.
and then today!!! We found another house we like...it's on 7th in between victoria and commercial..it's beautiful....great rooms......great house, and so we called our real estate agent to see about putting in an offer but after awhile, he suggested we don't bother because of our income and where our money stands at....so kind of discouraging. its hard to explain to a non -christian businessman about believing in faith for some miracle. but in the end we didn't go for it. i guess we're going to pray tonight and see if God makes anything else clear. either way, we need our own place asap. for our own sanity. and then tonight we hung out with our lovely friends jamie, craig and henri....ordered in pizza and got a movie while we ate our ice cream..good times......it was nice to be out of the house for a day.
so yeah, that's where i'm at ...kind of..there is of course me trying to figure out our lives and where we want to live and what we want to do....i feel i'm getting more clarity day by day, i think. just need more and more speace of our own to think about things, to reflect, to be at peace. that's all for now.....