joy and 'pain'

well.....after that beautiful sunny day post, we found out we didn't get the place we want cause we are having a baby.....not because there was someone else better suited (because no one else applied for the suite) but because they didn't want the baby to be too noisy...so i cried while i ate my breakfast the other day, and i'm done crying now, although i still don't understand why we didn't get it, maybe they'll change their minds, maybe we will get it..i don't know. i'm sure you're all sick of hearing about how we don't havr a place to live, but we've realized that it's been a year in may that we packed up our place in scotland and we haven't really had our own place to live .....i'm sure God has taught us alot, me and mike are 'home' to each other, we've adapted to different situations, we've been able to travel, we've grown in our friendship and marriage despite not having our own place. at least we have each other. that's the pain and the joy, i want mike to myself for the last three months before our little one comes into the world....and so i want our own place and the joy is that i have mike with me in this adventure.