good friends and being tired

well, last weekend i went to canada. and hung out with jamie....my very good friend and because mike couldn't go to canada craig came over to see him. so they had their 'guy' time and we, girl time ....soo good. ooh how i've missed it. and we talked way too late in the night. ( or early morning)
and had a great time by the water and relaxing. i thought i had more pics of jamie but i don't. mostly because she took lots of pics on my camera but i thought i had more of her. i'm sad that i don't. and i don't have one pic of the two of us....sad. but there are some great pics that jamie took of kael, he was crawling around in the nude and having a great time.
and it's been hard catching up on sleep....i've been working at 5am the last few days, but it was worth it.

my mother-in-law

well...today we took Linda, my mother-in-law to the airport. She was with us for a little over a week. And like always we had a great time with her and she spoiled us as well. She brought all kinds of clothes for Kael and while she was here bought him some toys, which he loves playing with. She also brought me these beautiful pottery dishes she got for me. They are gorgeous, one is a huge bowl that looks like a leaf, it's beautiful dish. She even bought me an oprah magazine.
Kael got to spend some time with just her as well, while me and mike went on our first trip with out Kael. We went to denver for a business conference and traveling without Kael is so much easier. But i did miss him by the end. So here are some pics of my beautiful mother-in-law. She is such a blessing in our lives and we enjoyed our time with her. Kael will miss her too.
now we're off to see jamie and craig, we leave our house on thursday, spend a night with my parents and then up to see jamie and craig at my family's. i'm really excited.

swinging

guilt

so my life. is adjusting as you all know. here are some more of my recent thoughts.
kael is almost 1 yr old and i can't believe it. he is laughing alot this week, so much fun and of course makes me laugh more. he brings so much joy to my life.
i finally got to talk to emily on the phone this week and it was nice since she understands all the thoughts and feelings of leaving ywam, i admit i didn't fully understand her thoughts and feelings before but it's nice that she understands mine. it feels like you are starting over. (jamie and audge you may or may not experience some of the same things) but once you 'leave' and enter the real world there are all kinds of emotions and thoughts going on and i up til now i dont even know if i could identify some of them. i'm rambling i know, so ok this week for the first time since we've moved here someone really asked me how it was leaving ywam and was it an adjustment, and it is on so many levels but the thing is ...nobody usually asks you, or seems to care. it's like you you were married and now you aren't but nobody asks you about or seems to think it was a big deal in your life.....but it was our entire life for years, not just a DTS, but years.....and also we've been looking at buying and what are our options, what it take etc...and we have no savings, we have just started making some money so i feel as if we are way behind everyone our age, i feel like a newbie, to life. even though i have had all these amazing opportunities and experiences it just feels like a foreign life.
but this morning in church i realized i left guilt behind when i left ywam. (not like ywam cause me guilt, it was my own feelings but still very real feelings) guilt that i wasn't doing enough, i felt guilty every time we used money on fun stuff, movies, out to eat etc. i still struggle with feelings of guilt sometimes but not as much as i did then. i am more relaxed about my life, about getting up going to work or not going to work. about hanging out with kael all day long, having coffee with a new friend, taking a walk through the park, or sitting and reading in the park while kael sleeps...i don't feel guilty about any of those things and taht feels great. so those are my jumbled thoughts for now.....
p.s. mike has blogged, i know it's been awhile but check it out

my husband

finally.....i can breathe a sigh of relief. we 'finally' sent in mike's paperwork to begin his process of getting his green card. almost $1,000 dollars later and many many forms we have it all in. and this is just the beginning of the process. his application may not even get read for another 6 months but soon he'll at least be in the system. it took us so long, and we were worried about getting it wrong and procrastinated but it feels so good that it is now in the mail. yeah!!!! just wanted to share my joy with all of you.

dessert recipes

lately, i cannot think of much to share. this month is busy. i am happy to report that things are getting better here. i am making friends, connections and have plans this week. i went for coffee today with a new friend and had a play date on monday. I'm enjoying the connections so much.
right now i just want dessert though. but i have no flour ot make cookies or cake and i want something yummy in my mouth right now? someone give me some good dessert recipes. i have to make a treat for our small group on monday night and i want to make something easy and super yummy....ideas anyone?

nothing to say

don't know what to say. i want to go to the movies. i want to see
transformers, pirates 3, knocked up, ratatoille, evan almighty, and those are just the ones that are out right now. but no movies for me.

hhmmm........

i feel like there were things i wanted to blog about but now i'm not sure what any of those things are.
i made a friend this week. she invited me over to her house and kael and her son 'played' together. (they didn't really play. kael scooted around their floor while caleb played near him. :) and we talked easily and this friday we will be going to their house for pizza..:) so that's fun.
this month is going to be busy. july felt like it was so far away and now it is here. time moves so quickly these days sometimes i wonder if i'm going anywhere.
my last post was about creating a space for creativity and i'm just not sure where to do that in my house. and i'm not sure where to start. i feel kind of lost lately in some areas. one area is passion..what am i passionate about and what am i doing anything about? how am i changing or affecting anything? how am i making a difference in anything? what am i leaving behind? feeling kind of 'blah' at the moment. not sure how to get past it.