scotland

So, i'm off to Scotland tomorrow morning. Lisa ( my sister in law) is getting married and both mike and kael will be sporting kilt's. so i'll make sure to take lots of pics. I'm not sure who reads my blog anymore....but i hope you all caught a few posts ago that i found out i'm having another boy!!! we are very very excited.
k, i might post from scotland, i might not..we'll see.....

jamie

ahhh.....my dear old friend jamie came to visit this week. She was in Wisconsin for a wedding and I ended up getting her for almost 4 days. It was GREAT!!!! I saw her in January, but this time it was so great to have her here with me, mike and kael. we all loved having her here. And me and jamie stayed up way too late every night talking...it's soo nice to have a friend around who knows you, someone you feel comfortable with, i treasure my friendship with her and am sad that i don't know exactly when i'll see her again........love you jamie, thanks for coming to visit.

Hilarious

This is Mike writing here. I couldn't resist it's just too funny not to share.

Jessi woke me up in the middle of the night last night shouting..."Mike, Mike ahhhhh, ahhhhh!" Then she leapt out of bed and turned the light on. I thought she had went into early labour or maybe her water had broke. Then she started saying "There's a spider in the bed. There's a spider...it fell on me!!" So naturally being the awesome husband I am I started looking for the nasty beast so I could destroy it and protect my bride. I asked Jessi how big it was and she said it was about the size of her hand...then I thought....she must be dreaming....is she dreaming? There is no way a spider of that size would be in our room. Then she went on to say that it had fell from the ceiling. Ahahaha lol yup she was totally dreaming. Its was hard not to laugh even at 2am.

we are having.......

a boy. :) we found out last week. in between all the traveling, we went north for my mom's birthday, then me and mike came home while kael stayed with grandma and grandpa, and during that time we went to have our first ultrasound and we found out that this new little one is a boy!!! we are very excited. We wanted kael to have a little brother, so we're very happy.
on thursday i also went back up north to meet my mom and kael and the three of us continued north to Sault Ste Marie, MI and ONTARIO to go to my cousin's graduation party. it was a fun weekend, very quick and very stressful, Kael hardly slept at all, made me run after him constantly and was very very clingy.i'm guessing because i'd been away from him for a few days. So, i came home exhausted. i think i'm still catching up. i feel really tired and trying not to get the cold that kael has at the moment.
But again our happy news is that kael will have a little brother. no names picked yet....so that's our news!!

my two babies

Michigan

This past weekend, I went up to t-hawk, met up with Andy and my mom, and then Saturday the three of us, plus Kael drove up to Sault Ste Marie, MI to see my grandpa. He's been moved to assisted living recently and we all wanted to see him. My brother hasn't seen him in a long time, so we got to spend some good time with him. Of course we saw my aunts, uncles and cousins as well. Lots of good family time, It was a short visit but a very good one. I also really liked hanging out with my brother and getting to see Kael with all of his relatives. My grandpa's new home is very very nice. It feels like he's staying in a log cabin Lodge thing. And his room overlooks the Soo Locks, so He can see the big ships/boats going right by his window. It's hard to see grandpa being more frail and not the grandpa i remember, but he was doing much better than he was a few months ago. Here are a few pics from my trip....i also very much enjoyed getting to talk and hang out with my mom and my brother.

today matters

My mother-in-law just left this morning. She was visiting for a week, and it went way too fast. It was really nice to have her here. She babysat for us while we went away for the weekend to a business conference. And at our conference we got to hear John Maxwell speak. He is one of my favorite speakers ever. His teaching is so profound and yet so simple. he's a great speaker, easy to listen to, funny and comes straight from the heart. All his principles are things we all need. I'm also reading his book Today Matters and it is very convicting as well as inspiring. It asks questions like, are you living your life today, the way you want to live it tomorrow?? you can't live in past failures or successes....and you can't just keep wishing for tomorrow..you have to live today in a way that matters, in a way that makes your tomorrow the future you wish and want it to be. Make Today your masterpiece.

I want to live my life in way that reflects my values and constantly be seeking to better my life, my relationships, myself......etc...

so this weekend was amazing.

birthday party

Today we went to Kael's friend's Birthday Party.....he just turned 2. And it was so much fun. George had a sand pit and a water table...and it was beautiful here...i think i got a little sunburn on my nose. Kael pretty much sat in the sandbox for most of the day and cried when we had to leave. He was throwing sand in his hair and bringing me handfuls...it was all in his hair and diaper.:) great summer day....and we got to hang out with our new friends katie and george.

deadliest catch

Ok, i know this is weird. but lately i've been hooked on this show. and mike keeps laughing at me. See, Deadliest Catch is on the Discovery Channel and is all about King crab fisherman in Alaska, So if follows them on their boats and narrates what they are doing, how much they are catching, etc etc etc.....and for some reason i really like it. i even watched the season premiere last night. so it's that's my confession......

haircut

so i'm thinking of getting my haircut. any ideas???

Horton Hatches the Egg

i'd like to recommend a book to ya'll. it's called Horton's Hatches the Egg...by Dr Seuss (of course)

a great story of patience and faithfulness.

sick

just a little update.....me and kael have been sick. Saturday i worked from 5am - 1:30 ..a long shift anyways..and i thought that i was just feeling really rough because i was prego....and i hadn't slept lately and it was my third opening shift in a row..(which have gotten alot harder since being pregnant) anyways....i just kept feeling worse and so finally i got home around 2pm...and went straight to bed....was chilled, felt really nauseous and then the throwing up started, i had a fever...i just knew then it was more than being pregnant....i stayed in bed for hours,only getting up to puke. i think i was downstairs on the couch for one hour and then back to bed , so me and mike are laying down and i saw out right away but mike thought he should check on kael and good thing he did because there was throw up all over his bed....so mike cleaned it all up, and then changed the sheets, showered kael off, etc....and put him back in bed, went to go to bed again but thought he heard kael again, so went in there, picked up kael and kael threw up all over him......so mike basically was up all night with the little tyke......and he took care of the two of us all saturday and sunday......and kael was looking really bad on monday afternoon...he wasn't drinking anything, no pedialyte or water. so we took him to the ER, and he wasn't in serious condition but they tried to get him to take fluids and he wouldn't either so they put him on an IV and after that sent us home.....so kael is finally seeming more himself, just tonight for about an hour, he was smiling again which he hadn't done in a long time...it was so nice to see again. he basically slept on and off all day cuddled on my lap, waking up to cry, and readjust but tonight made me feel so much better to see him babbling and smiling again, and looking for his belly button. :) now he's sleeping and i'm sure he'll be alot better tomorrow. i'm feeling ok, better but not 100% yet.....
so i'm sure you really wanted to hear about all that sickness but that's what our live has been these past few days. thank God, mike didn't get sick, i don't know what we would've done without him. a wonderful husband and great dad.

this week i had a life

this week i actually had a life.
Monday night
i went for coffee with my new friend Katie, just me and her, mike put kael to bed and me and katie ended up talking for hours. it was great.
Tuesday morning was a new mum's group, which i have such a high hopes for. it was a group of women who all have kids around the same age, ( from baby to 2 1/2) and Bonnie is leading it and Bonnie has 7 kids, ( the youngest are 14) So, she has lots of wisdom, advice for us....she's going to give us simple advice , like cleaning tips, cooking tips, and she will also pass onto us lots of other things.
Wednesday: went to Madtown twisters me, katie, kael and george loved it.
Thursday: mum's group and such a beautiful lunch, homemade soup and salad. And all the mom's got to sit around the table and talk while the kids actually played together. It was great.
And so...this week i had a life. And mike even noticed i was happier...
tomorrow is a kids consignment sale i'm hoping to get to as well. hope i find some good finds. and maybe we might go to visit mike's dad. He lives in the caribbean and he might pay for us to go to visit..(in just over a week) just trying to check out details and see if it's all going to work out, since it's so quick......we'll see..........

thanks to my friend eva

it's so weird, how when things are rough, i actually want to blog, because i feel so lonely lately that it seems like i'm actually sharing with 'friends' what is going on when it put on my blog. But in truth, i actually need to reach out to people....not that those who read this aren't people. but i need to make myself vulnerable enough to reach out to and talk to specific friends....
and this week was horrible...well, the week wasn't actually horrible it's just that all my feelings hit the surface ( as well as i'm sure prego hormones mixing in with the feelings that were already there) anyways..so tuesday i just 'lost it' in a way, i broke down crying to mike, very frustrated with my life, or lack of, frustrated with having no friends with my whole life revolving around kael and mike ( even though i love them dearly of course) and i'm ready to quit work, working while pregnant is not fun, in fact it's getting more difficult to wake up at 415 am and then stand for 8 1/2 hrs....so in the midst of this crying, mike had to go pay a bill, and while he was out, someone knocked on the door and delivered flowers. My friend Eva, from Scotland, didn't even know what was going on with me, sent me flowers with a note that said 'Jessi, just wanted you to know how wonderful and special you are. I treasure your friendship. love you lots. love, eva' and of course that sent me over the edge as well and i bawled some more. it's amazing how just when you need a friends words can just be exactly what you needed to hear. God knew too. so, thanks to my friend eva.....it meant to so much.

madtown twisters

i'm not sure if i've posted about this yet or not. But i took kael to madtown twisters today. It's a gymnastic place, but everyday between 11am-12:45 they have open todller gym, with lots of foamy toys for them to play with, and open space to run around on all the soft floors, trampolines, so much for kids to do. And kael loves it. he ran around the entire time, finding lots of things to play on/with. and i love it too because he gets to use up all his energy, he gets to see hang/out with other kids ( not that he really plays with them) and i can relax a little it. My friend katie went with me today with her son, George who is just a bit older than kael. it's so worth it. And we can talk while they roam free. the only thing was that this week is spring break so there were tons of kids. but next week will be a bit more calm again. anyways....i wish my posts were about deeper things but that was day today so i thought i'd share.

things i really like lately.......

well, i'm in a good mood. so i thougth i'd share some of the things i've been enjoying greatly lately.....

KT tunstall's album 'eye to the telescope' me and kael like to dance to it.

naps...i had a nap today while kael napped and i know it's the reason i feel 10x better.

pickles....again me and kael love them

sunshine and warmer weather...currently it is 47 and feels like summer.

the book Beautiful Boy

my mom...she sent me clothes she bought for me ( just cause) and we're going to visit her this weekend ( hopefully my dad too) and i know she'll take care of me.

and i love my friends ( even though right now i'm missing them terribly)

musings.......

well, i'm not sure if you'd really call them musings... right now as i speak kael is dumping lots and lots of crumbs on the floor from the muffin he didn't eat. one thing i'm so sick of is our dirty floor, and it takes me forever to sweep and then kael no time at all to make sure there are crumbs and food all over it again.
what i want right now is to sit with a hot cup of tea and a yummy muffin and read. without interruption, without me needing to get up and do anything unless it's something i want to do.
i'm reading the book called giving birth.
I had an appointment with a midwife on monday to discuss my options for a VBAC.
.....ok that was a few days ago. it's friday night. my floor is still dirty. i just watched the movie/documentary " The Business of Being Born' and i recommend it to anyone having a baby or interested in the whole idea of midwives vs doctors. Very very interesting movie. it makes me so want to have a homebirth. It is very similiar in it's views to a book i'm reading currently 'Giving Birth'
so....more days later......i miss having friends. feeling pretty lonely lately. and i want someone to cook a homestyle meal for me. roast beef and gravy or something. that's all for now. this post isn't really about much....

WE GOT IT!!!

We had mike's interview today....it wasn't too bad. some questions but not digging questions. and at the end she told us she was approving the application. So in a few weeks mike will receive his green card in the mail!!! yeah!!!!! so so happy. And tonight we're hanging out eating pizza and watching a movie with my brother and his girlfriend. good times.......

off to get a green card

Tomorrow we are heading to Minneapolis/St Paul to spend the night and then on Friday at 1pm Mike will have his interview for his green card. We will both be there and they will take us in different rooms to interview us. (to see if we're really married) So today i'm getting the rest of his paperwork and stuff ready. ( hope i have everything) and i'm a little nervous cause it's the government n' all that we are meeting with. But i know that we are a legitimate marriage and we have a kid which i think should help a little.....ahhh.....yesterday I worked from 5am- 1:30pm and then i had to go back to work at 5:30 and was there til 9:30for a training session with all the staff. so i'm tired today and my legs are very tired. but overall i'm glad it's over and the training was fun. anyways....onto the green card stuff....