WE GOT IT!!!

We had mike's interview today....it wasn't too bad. some questions but not digging questions. and at the end she told us she was approving the application. So in a few weeks mike will receive his green card in the mail!!! yeah!!!!! so so happy. And tonight we're hanging out eating pizza and watching a movie with my brother and his girlfriend. good times.......

off to get a green card

Tomorrow we are heading to Minneapolis/St Paul to spend the night and then on Friday at 1pm Mike will have his interview for his green card. We will both be there and they will take us in different rooms to interview us. (to see if we're really married) So today i'm getting the rest of his paperwork and stuff ready. ( hope i have everything) and i'm a little nervous cause it's the government n' all that we are meeting with. But i know that we are a legitimate marriage and we have a kid which i think should help a little.....ahhh.....yesterday I worked from 5am- 1:30pm and then i had to go back to work at 5:30 and was there til 9:30for a training session with all the staff. so i'm tired today and my legs are very tired. but overall i'm glad it's over and the training was fun. anyways....onto the green card stuff....

Major Disappointment

Well...tonight i went to a birth center to check it out. They have a tour every wednesday. And i loved it. it had beautiful birthing rooms, very much like a relaxing bedroom....a whirlpool tub to labor in or give birth, a nice bathroom with a big shower...and then came the time for questions..and my only question tonight was if it was there a problem if my first was born by c-section. And the answer i didn't expect came and brought on my major disappointment. Birthing center's in wisconsin are not allowed to have VBAC's. (Vaginal Birth After Cesarean ) So, no matter how nice the birth center was - I cannot give birth there. But i could have a home birth (isn't that weird) but insurance doesn't cover home birth , only hospital or birth center. So, i'm kind of stuck. I do have an appointment with the owner of the birth center in 1 1/2 weeks and hopefully she will be able to help me figure out my options. I'm very disappointed. i wish i could just fly back to Vancouver and have elizabeth deliver my baby again. And here midwives do not have hospital privileges So even if i see a midwife for my whole pregnancy when it comes time to deliver the doctor has to deliver. It's soo frustrating and i feel like the US is behind the times and need to get with it. So i'm kind of at a loss.

highly unmotivated

i'm tired, and whiney. my stomach has not completely given up on me yet. but it's not really that sure it wants to be nice to me either. i'm not throwing up but i'm not feeling so great. nausea ...and tired. i don't want to do anything. i don't want to cook any meals for mike because everything sounds gross, all my stomach wants is bagels and cream cheese, or pizza or really tame food. i feel guilty for not eating healthier but i can just barely eat. ahhhh.....and my house is a mess. kael's toys are everywhere and i just can't be bothered to pick them up right now. i feel like a bad mother and wife. i know it will pass. i just wanted to whine.

Super Nanny

Do you ever wonder 'what would super nanny think ???'

shoes

check out kael wearing my shoes....

just once

so all of the sudden friday night i started feeling very sick, it hit quickly and just had to lay down, it hurt so bad, like acid burning my stomach, constricting my chest and making my back ache. i've had something similar after my c-section and i'm just not sure why i'm having it again. I'm sure it's because i'm pregnant but it sucks so bad. i pretty much couldn't do anything but the necessary. and mike was gone and couldn't come home so i had to take care of Kael on my own, so before his bedtime i put him in the tub for an extended bath while i threw up( it didn't seem to scare him or anything) he was happily playing in the tub. and then it went away, in the middle of the night felt horrible again but by 4am (when i had to get up for work) i felt mostly better. but not all better i ended up leaving work a few hours early. so my first unpleasantries of being prego again.
mostly i am just exhausted. and running after kael seems to take so much energy.
for some reason i can't get an pics to load i'll have to post again later

5 weeks

well...
i'll take leanne's advice. I'm 5 weeks prego right now. Crazy huh? I am due October 9th (emily n josh's anniversary and the day before our anniversary. And i'm feeling great. it's weird. I'm not feeling sick at all. which is weird since last pregnancy i was feeling sick all the time. I feel extremely tired and some little pains here and there but overall feeling great!!! I wish i could nap every afternoon but i don't always get to. But my birthday was this week and it was great. I was amazed by how many birthday wishes i got. My mom came down and took us out to this great restaurant. She even made me cheesecake (which she's never done before and it was soo yummy) I got cards, presents, flowers delivered from my in-laws and because my mom was here i got to take a nap. :) I usually have this sense of disappointment on my birthday and I didn't have that at all. I didn't expect to feel disappointed and I was actually blown away by how many people wished me a happy birthday. i felt very loved and thought of. Thanks everyone!!

super hero

i think kael looks like a super hero in this little outfit. for some reason i love his pj outfits so much...maybe the way they make his belly look really big. and he loves the broom and the swiffer....dust pans, little brushes. he's so funny.

lately.....

Well.....this week has been a bit busy. sorry for the lack of posts. Last week I went to visit my friend Jamie. I had such a great time with craig and jamie. Lots of girl talk, movies, hanging out...just relaxing. it was weird to be kid-less and husband-less for a few days. it was good for me though. It was nice to just be me. and to be with someone where you can just pick up, catch up, not have to worry about explaining yourself...etc.....you know. friends that know you.

and friday night we had our first trip to the ER with Kael. It wasn't like an emergecy where we were rushing to get there etc...but it is really the first time we've had to take him in. He hasn't really been sick, only a cold her eand there but not many. We have been very blessed. So, he had had something in his eye earlier in the day and we rinsed it out but his eye was swelling and it wasn't really getting any better. It was red and watery. So we called a nurse hot line thing and she suggested taking him in. We had to wait awhile, though kael wasn't screaming or anything so it wasn't painful waiting. just waiting, tired though because by the time we took him was about 8pm. We got home shortly before midnight and was told it was two small scratches on his eye, we picked some eye ointment and it's all good. By sunday morning his eye was looking way better already. And the only thing that really bothers him is us putting the ointment in his eyes. Other than that He's doing great. He likes to be very vocal these days. lots of yelling and excited screaming. fun times.
that's what's happened lately......

visit

Last week there was tons of snow outside my house and now there is hardly any. i can see most of the grass in my yard. we had a heat wave like lots of others and it makes the winter seem so gray. even though it's warm i'd rather have sunshine, cold weather and the white cover of snow on the ground. it just looks dirty and gray now.

this morning i am watching my new friend Katie's kid. He is 4 months older than Kael ( although much bigger, kael is on the small side for his age) and they are playing together and i think it's great. They have both gone down for naps now, which i'm kind of amazed they both went down so easy. George ( that is the little boy) is our first guest in our house, funny isn't it and he's not even 2 yrs old. i love seeing them together. it's the first time i've noticed Kael actually playing with another kid as opposed to just playing around each other.
And speaking of another visit...
i am going to visit Jamie...i am so excited. I leave on Saturday and i get three whole days with her. I'm not even taking Kael. It will be my first trip away from him. So weird. Well, actually that's not true, I've taken trips before but they have all been for business etc...this is my first for fun. Me and jamie. it still seems unreal and i' not sure what i'll do with myself. I can plan my day and not have to think of nap times, bed times, eating, when is his fussy time etc...we can just do whatever we feel like. weird. i'm really looking forward to it and my mom is going to watch Kael while i'm gone so that Mike can still work. so i'm looking forward to my visit.

crepes

last year mike decided that he wanted to learn to cook, so last year for christmas he got himself a cookbook that really gives you lots of tips. so he didn't really learn to cook at all last year. he made eggs once or twice. But this year he decided to make crepes. So the other night we had dessert crepes...i had honey ad butter on mine. so great. And then for breakfast we had ham and cheese crepes. I must say i was highly impressed. i have never made crepes and i dont like making pancakes, but i love eating crepes and his turned out perfect, even the first one.

Happy New Years!!

Well, i just wanted to post. Nothing special going on today, but feeling good Feeling hopeful about the next year. Today i got to sleep in (thanks to mike) i've even been able to read some of my new book, a Thousand Splendid Suns and i made some yummy cheese and potato/veggie soup. and i'm looking forward to eating it. We're just relaxing, Kael is so active, he loves the dustpan, spatula's and the broom......and his new toys.
i'm going to enjoy the rest of the day.....watch movies, eat yummy soup, read.....hang out with my boys. today i've just been thinking how nice it would be to have my friends over. but i'll just have to think happy thoughts about them..:) love ya'll. enjoy your new day. A new year, new beginnings..fresh starts and continuation of all the great things from last year.
Happy New Year.

Christmas

Well, i can't believe christmas has been here and gone. It was a great christmas. So much fun with family. My dad made Kael his very own play house, with windows and shutters and doors.....and inside was a red shiny radio flyer wagon. sweet!!!
he tries to haul the wagon around on his own, it's hilarious. and as you can see in one of the pics he also likes to lay down in it and take a ride.
andy and jen were home as well...so the whole family went bowling.....and me and mike did horrible when it was us against my mom and dad and andy and jen.....we were the worst couple ...

Kael got to play in the snow for the first time ( those pics coming soon) i missed out on the snow forts.....but andy jen and mike all had their own. ( i was in town having lunch with my beautiful friend shelley.....which was great as well)
let's see......not much else to say just wanted to give a little update and post some pics...i have to explain the last pic, Kael got this toy that is a zebra and it makes noise etc....and so Kael had to press the buttons/things that made the noise but it would scare him so he would run and hide behind my mom, and the last picture is his little skeptical face and my mom laughing at him....so funny!

We Are back. We were gone for 10 days to various islands in the caribbean. We really went to see Mike's dad, who now live's in Turks & Caicos Islands, but we went throught the Dominican Republic ( which everyone down there refers to as the D.R.) And his dad lives on this tiny island called Salt Cay, it was great. Beautiful beaches, their house is great, perfect for living on an island, lots of charm.
Kaels' hair was all curly because of the humidity...it was awesome. now that we are back you can tell he really needs a haircut.

Me and mike both got our diver's certification and that was really cool. I was afraid at first to do it..but i want to be able to try new things so i did it.i read something just recently that said to do things you are afraid of. so I just went for it. and actually the more i learned the more comfortable I felt. We saw two giant lobsters. ad lots of other really cool fish. Since we have relatives down there we'll probably get to dive some more.....

Mike's birthday is tomorrow so i'll have to think of something to do....:) anyways...lots of laundry, and stuff to do. can't believe christmas is so close now.

well. hello all. sorry i've been so lame at posting lately. i feel like there has been lots to post and not much at all.....
so like i said, we moved into a house. and it has much more space to roam around in. we are still slowly getting settled in. it's so nice to feel like you are really in your own house though. ( not really ours, but you know what i mean)
so, what's happened......
1.i went to michigan with my mom to see my grandpa. and it was so fun to see my aunts and uncles and cousins.....and to show Kael off. My little cousin who is 3 was so excited to see Kael one day and she ran into a coffee table and got a big bump on her head.
2. mike and kael were both sick, throwing up and everything and i wasn't even there to take care of them because they were with my mom ( and i was in madison working)

3. a few days after getting back from thanksgiving we were making a fire in our new Pellet stove in our new house and it exploded (inside the fireplace) and smoke was everything and so the fire department came with three trucks and two police cars, they blocked off the road and so we were all outside, and i met all the neightbors...;) great huh?

4. and now we are going to the Caribbean on Monday,to visit mike's dad, who lives in Turks and Caicos ( islands right next to the bahamas, the dominican etc....)

so.......i can't get any pics to upload right now i'm not sure why...so that's all for now. sorry for the lack in posting.....hope some people are still reading.

ohhh yeah!!! last night i went to an Over the Rhine concert right here in Madison and it was soooo great!!!! and mike , being the best husband ever had emailed them earlier to say...' my wife is a big fan could you dedicate a song or meet her or something) so it didn't work out but the manager was touched by the romantic gesture of my husband that she is sending me a free cd...how cool is that????
so i'll upload pics soon of our new place and stuff.......

well well well.......

what can i say?? we moved. we were prompted to move out of our old neighborhood by some sketchy things going on in our area.....it prompted the quick move. we are now in a house. we are renting a gorgeous old house. lots of character....hardwood floors, fireplace, three bedrooms, basement, and an upstairs... i love it. it's weird that it's ours. i mean we didn't buy it. but we are renting it and it's nice to be in a house. we have to get it kid proofed. kael has to adjust to the hardwood floors......poor little guy has slipped a few times..and now we have stairs....so we need to buy baby gates.....we have had piles of boxes, chairs, luggage etc in front of stairs....so once we get the house settled, the baby gates set up etc.....i will feel more relaxed in our home. yiu can all come visit now....please do.....this house is old but it has so much character, a red kitchen with shiny nobs.....and cool tiled counters, cork floors..etc.....and the bathroom is sooo nice....and the bedrooms are all different shades of green. oohh please come visit me.

i'll post pics soon.

moving

hey peeps! we're moving. and i've been out of town, therefore there has been a lack of posting. we are just moving within madison, to a house though!! yeah!! and it has a piano in it. stay tuned for updates on my life.....

tagged

well...joanna(well actually sophia and ella) tagged me in her blog and
Here are the rules: You must list one fact that is somehow relevant to your life for each letter of your middle name. (If you don't have a middle name, use the middle name you would have liked to have had.) When you are tagged you need to write your own blog-post and then choose one person for each letter of your middle name to tag. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

so here goes....hmmm....

M - mother, i am a mother, i love it more everyday, i love it more than i thought i would....i love being Kael's mum. it's tiring, but it's so worth it. my time with him, as his mother is precious to me.

A - authentic....that's what i long to be. i long to be authentic, for my insides to match my outsides..and for that to bring life to others, to be positive, passionate and alive. so i know i'm not always truly authentic, but i strive to be and i want that to be me.

E -enjoying.....the fall weather, my morning coffee, my quiet times, my son, my husband. enjoying the journey, enjoying the spot i'm in right now.

ok, i'm not sure if that is exactly what i was meant to do..but that has taken me all day..i'm so glad my middle name is only three letters.....

so....i tag: audrey, shelley, and......rachel
that's all for now..off to tomahawk and then michigan for the next week..( and they have dial up still and there'll be no posting i'm sure) so til then.